In the midst of taking a poop, I just ended up crying because of all the things that are happening right now. I am grateful to be living in the middle of New York City and going to FIT, it’s just that being alone without you old friends and family is hard then on top of that have all this work you just keep falling behind on because everyone else in class can do it all. I can’t draw, I can’t color, I can’t make patterns, and I can’t even try to live my live healthy (more ways than one). Also now my phone is permanently dead, so I have no connection to anyone other than the internet. I miss having my loved ones around and having no real responsibilities, but I know all this I’m going through I for the better. God didn’t take me this far for nothing, I have to keep on going, cry when I can, cuz I’m not giving up! I will learn how to draw, I will learn how to color, I will learn how to make patterns and I will try to live my life healthy.